Overwhelmed

Sometimes life feels so overwhelming.

Too many toys, not enough of the right toys. Not much time to craft-to-sell, need more money. Elli's too smart for her own attention span... plus an eight month old who is so sure he should be able to walk that he get really frustrated and falls all the time. I don't want the tv on all day but I don't feel like our living room is right to entertain our kids without constant noise. How do I give my kids great life experiences without paying for outings... especially when I'm home alone with them more evenings than I have a partner. Geoff works 4 out of 7 evenings... ugh.

I feel... under. Like I'm dragging my feet through muck. *sigh* - Hard to find things to do with an 8mo old and 2 yr old!

~pbbblt :p
Amy

Ok, fine

Alright... I'm ok with it now.

I'm accepting that I turn 27 this year. I'm not ok with how close that is to 30 when I still feel 22 (funny, I didn't even have kids yet at 22!) but remembering that I still have three more years helps :)

I see my kids and think about how full the last 10 years have been... 27 won't be so bad.

2002-03 (17) Finished high school
2003-04 (18) Started college, met new friends, changed my major a few times, started dating Geoff
2004-05 (19) Did better in classes, settled into Business Major, Engaged in the summer
2005-06 (20) Lived 'off campus' w/ 5 other girls, got married in the summer
2006-07 (21) Lived in married housing, worked for the Learning Center at school, walked at graduation
2007 (22) Summer after school - took a test for one missing credit and went to England/Ireland on school trip
2008 (23) Lived in apartment, got cat and dog, started working @ Panera, left and started at Dentist office
2009 (24) Bought a house, gave away cat to sister-in-law (Gabe), pregnant in December
2010 (25) Hosted New Years Party, changed guest room to nursery, started finishing basement, had Eliana
2011 (26) 3.5 years working at the Dentist left to work for Insurance agent... just in time to find out I was pregnant... Eliana turns 1
2012 (27) Had Isaac, spent a week in hospital w/ Isaac, Eliana turned 2... now it is September and Isaac can pull to standing and is trying to cruise down the couch (what?! He could barely sit up 3 weeks ago) Geoff turns 27 soon then I turn 27 then it's Thanksgiving, then Christmas and...
2013... New Years and then Isaac's 1!!! Wow... Then my 10 year High School reunion.

I guess 27 isn't that bad... But I totally need to cut my hair again and update my clothes. I need to feel like I look 27... I still feel like a babysitter sometimes.

Wow... This is my last 10 years!
Amy

Shmolitics

I'm so tired of seeing all the election stuff everywhere! Looking forward to 2014 when the election and aftermath is behind us, you KNOW it won't happen fast. I think social media is awful for politics. The government thinking they need to please the people instead of doing what's best for the country is rough!! Too many laws, too much fighting, too much HATE. It seems like no one can change their mind about anything anymore because those 'cute' picture things on facebook are polarizing people. Just because it makes you smile or nod your head doesn't mean you should broadcast it as your opinion! It is just someone else's words and opinions that are made into a fun thing. Usually stated as absolute truth, maybe your thoughts aren't quite as firm but posting it on your wall sure makes it look like your opinion... a discussion may force you to defend that stance and you then take it on as if it is truth! I normally don't even care about politics too much but this year is ridiculous... and I have a blog now :)

Everyone, just STOP FIGHTING!!

Oh man. This is me in the everyday.
Amy

On my feet

I've realized that I spent a lot of time on my feet. I can only sit peacefully if Eliana is engrossed in a show, is in her highchair or she's asleep! Now Isaac's starting to give me a run for my money... I'm remembering why we had all our gates up when Eliana was just a beginning mover. We used to have a barricade so she was stuck in the living room... he made it into the kitchen today. AND he's trying so hard to stand up that he's constantly falling.

... and she's potty training and I have to teach him "yuck, don't touch" and everything else he needs to know. *sigh* How can I want a break from a job I love so much?
Then they play together so sweetly... then he starts crying for who knows what reason. My nerves are tired... looking forward to tea tonight! I wish I could pause them so I don't miss any of the good stuff but I could still get a little time to myself.

... oh well. That's just part of the everyday.

*Edit*
Isaac pulled up to standing today. I think the falls are going to get bigger until he gets the hang of moving around.

*Re-do*

I'm giving this poor neglected blog a makeover. I'm still going to talk about me and my life but this will be more. "The Everyday" ... NO I'm totally not going to post everyday (I don't think) that just doesn't sound possible. But I'm going to share what doesn't seem worth sharing and epiphanies that would usually embarrass me... When I was a kid I'd sing to my Grandpa's cows at night. Oh yea, that was me - praising God and serenading the cows. My neighbors picked on me pretty good for that one. *phew* That was embarrassing memory #1... this should all be downhill now, right?

Welcome, grab a seat. This is me in the everyday!
Amy